Sunday, May 22, 2005
how ironic is that when u have a guitar...but u dun use it at all for the past few yrs......................dots.......................yes....i bought my guitar a few yrs back....2-3 yrs ago???during that time...i've taken a fancy into guitars....but after a couple of lessons....i've lost my interest for it and slacked whenever the class started.....cos there is only one teacher....and about 10 students in that class....so can u imagine me being left in the corner...well...i liked it anyways...at least the teacher is not focussing on me...then when the time came for the elementary class to end...he needs to choose people who can go up to the intermediate....of course i didn't make it...haha....made a lot of mistakes...didn't even practised at all....so u can say that the money paid for that few months went to waste actually....but now....knowing that i can't leave my guitar in my hse for nothing...so i gotta learn it....for Him...haha....but also...can't bear seeing something living in my hse for nothing...i gotta use it anyways....so D.I started this this guitar lessons...so of course i went....so indeed...in that one hr and a half...learnt quite alot....now is that i need to practise....practise makes perfect ma....hehe.....
did a self evaluation on myself for these few days...i can't take my place as a member of the church....a sister to many...a member/core team member in the cg...a core team member in the dmm for granted......
God placed me in so places...........but frankly........i didn't quite realised the use of it until a few days ago...........ok......im slow.................
everytime people said affirmation.....they would somehow thank the person for doing their best in whatever that particular person did...etc and etc...i realised that i also want that too...hhaha.....so....indeed....in everything that i do from now onwards....i must do it to the best of what i can do....not only to polish up my character......but now....mainly the things that im doing now is His work......so whatever im doing now is also for Him....and i owe Him an explanation if i dun....haha.....so gotta think wisely now.....talk wisely.......do wisely........hmm.....pray that i can remember all these things....and im adjusting to talk better too....be disciplined in my actions.....im not too young and not too old....haha....somemore in d.i.........can say that being 17 is the youngest around.....but with the d.ians maturity.....i pray that they can influence me to become a young lady....not a 'siao za bo'.....hhahaa.......been in d.i for more then 6 months......my ex shepherd said that i've grown........well........i said no............i dun think so..............cos i dun think whatever im doing in the past is not letting me grow at all................................i think this is the season called winter for me bah.....like what meihwa said..........im not seeing any growth in me yet....not any real changes in me....everything is tOO stable in my life.......but seeds have fallen.........and they're waiting for the next season to come....to bloom.....thats when spring comes...(i think..haha)....the fruits will be grown........i really pray.....that this time wilL be winter.....but let it be the end of winter..amen??cos i wan to grow.............i wan to see something changing....something happening in my life....so that i can say........wow.........did i really did that???say this???.................
i feel that im not a good shepherd at all.......sheeps having problems in their lives....yet i can't help..........really want them to grow.........they really are what people will say as 'PL'(potential leaders).............they are fanatic......crazy....whatever in God..........but problems restrict them from doing so............hmm....really pray that they can have a breakthough in their lives.....fasting on it...............and another sheep.............she doesn't realise the potential in her...........slacks her day off...............fasting for her too.................pray that she can use her time wisely..........i think God is really great............this is just the time for her to show what she can do to God.....as now is her holidays........so its up to her on how she wanna use this holiday wisely..........praying that she'll have a break through in her life too............need ter fast for caregroup too.........too stable...........we need a breakthrough!!!!!!!!!!!!D.I1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!as number one...........we need to lead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
maybe we came to cg without our hearts prepared........jus want to waste that day off with cg..........come.....play games....sing praise and worship....then holy comm....sermon.....pray........the same routine...............but can we have a break through in every cg?????????can we make sure that we learn something??????so that we can go home with our hearts renewed??rejoiced???or just .....ok lor.....????hmmmm............need ter repent..............cos normally what i go off after cg is not always feeling the latter.......anyways......repentrepentrepent!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!can't go on this way............................
hmm.....got something from God.........asked me to lead something in the matt event........................pray that i can do it well.........................
i've thought of this before............normally when we prayed as a whole church during service..........everyone is different.....everyone's vision of what they should do for God is different..............imagine............everyone being ministered from God.........WOW...............IMAGINE THE SERVICE WITH 500 PEOPLE...............HE MINISTERED TO 500 PEOPLE AT THE SAME TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!OUR GOD IS SUCH A WONDERFUL AND MIRACULOUS GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!PRAISE GOD......!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WOW...................can't imagine what i'll be without Him.
&i'ld stand by you}
{11:53 PM,â¥}
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