Sunday, August 21, 2005
i am sinful
very sinful
what is sinful??
anything that falls short of the glory of God
didnt i know that im sinful?
well....not to the extent of really KNOW it...but i fully understand that....cos i didnt realise...stupid?haha....dun think so lah.....learning takes place everyday....like now....
realised that even in a short trip from maybe ya hse to the mrt...u can do alot of things that will not please God.
u might not feel it.....u might not even know it....
from ya thoughts...to ya body language......could tell the world a different story then what u think it would be....
someone 'pin pointed'...or a nastier word....rebuked me....3 times i think...(yaya....i hold grudges....but not bitterness...hehe...but come to think of it...repentence)(MUST!)....
being pin pointed/rebuking is a painful feeling.....
it hurts me alot....really....i might not show it....but deep deep down in my heart its tearing....the feeling is indescrible)...
but its the more i love the person for doing that to me.....y not hate...??nicer feeling rite?no need to talk to that particular person at all....what a nice thing to do...........but thats not what i think the person i love would even try to think to do it....
so love the person...........y not gain a fren than a enemy......not only that....God would want us to love one another....so y not do things that God will like...hehe....
learn another thing today....
haha....how did i learn it??woo....in the bathroom.....suddenly thinking about fellowship....haha....
fellowship with my frens is important....fellowship with my dians is very important....fellowship with my family..........important?
haha....you must be thinking..........crazy....................abo then.......................DUH!!!.....................
but have u spent time with ya parents and ya siblings?if yes...........how?is the time well spent?open during the conversation u have between them....or just sitting there............if yes to all these....well i guess thats good fellowship......even when u and ya parents jus sit and watch tv........the feeling of knowing that u are there.............its enuff to satisfy ya parents.....but how much time have we spent with our parents?
this is a very very big issue....personally for me.....
1)cos im really close with my parents
2)my home.........HOME...........is not a HOTEL............the feeling of knowing tat u treat ya house like a hotel.......come in...sit for a little while....then go out to do something...........this type of feeling....knowing that u cannot spent enuff time with ya family is not pleasant.at all.
so thats why after meetings....or cgs.........i will go home straight away..............even when there is nothing at home.......i will not stay in that place to makan........i will da bao(take away)..........
the time u have with ya family is so little liao..............y lessen it to be with ya frens....?
priortize(spelled incorrectly?)
u already had enuff time spent with ya frens in sch...........about 8-10hrs?
u already had enuff time spent with ya dians in meetings/cgs....bout 4 hrs?
u need to sleep...6 hrs?i know we got alot of owls here....
traveling time?2 hrs?
eg 10+4+6+2=22
time with family?2 hrs.....enuff??i dun think so.....cos u also need to do projects or homework at home.....so see the importance of the fellowship with ya family?this can also bridge the closeness of the family together also...
i love them....really.....thinking about this can make me cry.....which writing this....haha....tearing my eyes.................
i guess seeing the day my whole household coming to know Christ would be a waterfall explosion...........not kidding..........
i remember myself crying when i was working at pasir ris....becos i miss them....and its only half an hr trip back home to see them...haha....ridiculous isn't it?
but thats how i love them.=)
&i'ld stand by you}
{12:07 AM,â¥}
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